suicide


isn't it stupid to make such things?
to think on how to kill yourself?
to escape from your worries?
will it be the only solution for you to have a complete freedom?

while I was lying on my bed, my mom silently says, " have you heard of your uncle boyet?"
"what about him?" I said. "He was seen by your grandma trying to commit suicide by means of a rope" she continued. To shorten the matter, instead of making the conversation seriously, I decided to make some pun on it. I said, "uhmmm... its so classic to use a rope when you''ll commit suicide, havent he thought of anything new?"

silence...

I continued...
"uhmmm... if ill be the one to commit suicide, ill think of the nicest way, tipong makabagong pagpapakamatay, and ang gusto ko, kahit papano, may farewell akong gagawin"
"you're a freak!" my mom yelled."Im just imagining...dont take it seriously mom,but, you may if you'd like to..."

after that, my mom went sleep and that gave me the time to think again...
What are the other ways of commiting suicide?Aside from classic ways like using a rope,using a knife and cutting your pulse, etc...

I want such way na maligaya ako pag nangyari,then I've come to think na I have an ailment in heart...

1. Over sex: sabi ng doctor, dapat hindi ako masyadong magpagod. Well, in this case, malamang nakabaon pa tigok na ako!peace! ;p

2. Winning a lottery: damn!mas lalo na to!baka atakihin ako sa puso, sayang naman yung premyo!

3. heart break: I've been into lots of it pero hindi yata effective to, pero somehow, pwede ring maging cause..

4. drugs: hala...wag to.ayoko na nito! ;p

5: suffocation: ito mahirap, muntik na akong madali nito...kaya medyo claustrophobic ako eh.

6 others: wala na akong maisip!!!

but before mangyari un, ill make a very long suicide note..yung tipong mamimis ako ng lahat ng tao. ;p tapos may mga puzzles pa, parang davinci code.hahaha
...freaking, I dont know why Im thinking like this...hehehehe