Ang gulo no???

I'm with my friend Ana yesterday due to boredome. We walked and walked till we got tired. We sat under the tree and I started playing songs with my guitar. She opened such topic and I know that this topic doesnt catch my interests. Its all about love and everything about relationship. Im growing as a bitter individual. Im starting to have a stone of heart. Anyways, she started asking questions and my answers seemed to be soo bitter. I just dont know, but I can justify my responses on her topics. She cited some situations wherein I need to decide what to do. Heres some of them...

*Gusto mo, Gusto ka, pero hindi kayo...

+ It happened to me. Ewan ko ba. Sadyang galit lang ata sakina ang kapalaran. Kahit gawin mong effort, in the end, walang kwenta. Mahirap iexplain eh. Mas ok na sigurong iwasan mo nalang sya kesa umasa ka e wala namang mangyayari.


*Gusto mo, ayaw sayo...

+ Pag ganito nangyayari, unti unti akong lumalayo, nasasaktan lang ako pag naiisip ko to.. feeling ko kasi parang hindi ako likeable kaya hindi nya ako magustuhan. Misan humahanap ako ng butas para kamuhian ko sya. In that case, natutulungan ko ung sarili kong magmove on.


*Gusto ka, ayaw mo...

+ Sinasabi ko agad. Alam ko kasi ung feeling ng umasa kaya as much as possible sinasabi ko agad na ayoko sa isang tao. Wag ng mageffort dahil wala ding mangyayari. Kung gusto nya akong maging kaibigan, ok, kung ayaw, mas ok.hahaha


While playing sudoku kanina, an enemy texted(ENEMY)

"no wonder kung bakit ka single, ur such a dreamer, dream till you die...LOSER"

Thats the message. I just dont know what does it mean.
It affects my day. Im so confused on its meaning.
Kung anuman yun bahala na sha sa buhay nya.
Haynaku...